Joy, Stress & Fear
And finding your true why
It’s been a stressful past two weeks to say the least. I did not expect how much stimuli I get from being on a computer and being back “in the office”. I am not the type of person who would totally disconnect, but past 2.5 months in Europe and on the go I was in “maintain” and “visionary” mode – as opposed to “doer” mode. Being back in the US – at home, triggered the doer mode in me.
My company is going through a transformation where we are pivoting our identity, switching from a professional services company to a tech company – and it requires tough decisions to be made.
And I started to operate from a point of fear instead of joy.
What if the transition is not successful?
What if we fail at change management?
What if the revenues dip – due to me taking a bet to switch who we are and what we do?
Which didn’t bring the best out of me. High stress, sleepless nights, This video is a good one to watch.
I couldn’t sleep on Monday night, so I went for a jog late in the night – and when I came back, I looked at some old photos and videos, courtesy of my icloud.
My support circle told me to meditate, go for a run, even one suggested a sound bath – basically slow down and take care of myself first.
One thing that I came to conclusion is if I do not make the changes myself, then I will let others’ to sit at the helm of by boat – and steer it to where they want to go to, not where I want to go to. No matter how many therapists, business coaches, somatic practitioners, EOS facilitators, mentors I have – I need to own my decisions.
While I feel I am very fortunate and all of my problems could be considered 1st world / rich world problems – I realized that the amount of joy in my life did not go up lately – or to be more b Isn’t the purpose of life to leave a meaningful life, a “happy” one – that we are in flow – and enjoy ourselves?
Often times people think it’s easy to start and run a business – but I believe it’s super important for people to know their true why – before starting or scaling a business. It requires tough skin and grit.
May all of you find your true why – and find a little bit of joy, despite all the craziness happening out there.